Tonight was Holy Tuesday Service,The Bride Groom Mantins.I have to admit during holy week these bride groom mantins are my favorite.I think its because they are held in the evening,the lighting in soft,there are few people in the church and this year the incense were sweet and soft smelling its just wonderful to listen to those lovely soft chants and prayers.
As the week progresses the services get slightly louder and by Friday and Saturday evening the church is really crowded and loud.
I tend to be a more quite person when it comes to prayer and enjoy these soft mantins to loud services.I have never been one who could focus well and concentrate with noise around me,my mind goes in all different directions and I miss the point.
It is sad to think that in the next few days it will be more about the responses and less about the meaning and beauty.Most of the people that attend our church have done so since childhood. Holy Friday and Saturday become more about their joy of being able to sing the chants and responses to the service,a more social event then a service. But that's OK. because we all praise God in different ways.Some people need the loud excitement of Christ being risen I guess I need the quite soothing of the soft tones to help me ease into Easter day. I need to focus on the days leading up to the Crucifixion and the death,I need to know and feel all Jesus felt and to moarn for awhile.Jumping into Easter is a slow process for me and although the resurection is a wonderous thing I need to feel the full sadness before I can feel the full joy.